Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts

Saturday, July 20, 2019

FanFiction: Old Friends: A Gillibean and Amanda Clapham Story

Old Friends
A Gillibean and Amanda Clapham Story
For Gillie Rollo

The two little girls ran giggling to their grandmothers, who were sitting next to one another in the matching rocking chairs on the front porch. Between them was a round table upon which sat a thick utilitarian tea pot covered with a crocheted cozy, a plate of biscuits, and small containers of cream and sugar. Each of the older women held cups half full of tea, chuckling at the small girls running toward them like kittens after a mouse.

The first little girl, a delicate child of about five years with bouncing blonde pigtails, sat on the ground in front of her grandmother. Her friend plopped down next to her. The second girl was a ruddy redhead with a wild mess of curls and a face full of freckles. It was the freckled-faced girl who spoke first, bouncing her curls as she excitedly exclaimed,

Grandmother, tell us how you met each other! Elena wants to hear the story again!” This girl was a little older than the blonde, about seven, and full of the authority of an elder.

The little blonde giggled. She really did want to hear the story of how the two grandmothers had met. It was a story she never tired of hearing.

The two women glanced at each other, taking a sip of tea and setting their cups down in unison. One woman reached out her arms toward the redhead. “Come this way, Kara. You may sit in my wheelchair.” The child climbed into the fancy electric wheelchair her grandmother had been using since she was a child, which was parked next to the woman’s rocking chair. She held on to the arm as she settled in. Her grandmother placed a hand over hers.

Elena climbed into her grandmother’s lap and snuggled closed as the woman’s arms wrapped around her. Her grandmother began to tell the tale.

Well, girls, here it is. It isn’t a long story for such a long friendship. Once upon a time, I was an actress. I was on a television show that my friend here, your grandmother Kara, really liked. She liked the show, and my acting partner, Alfie. I guess she liked me, too, as an actress, right, Gilliebean?”

Kara’s grandmother nodded, laughing. “Well, I guess I did. I watched the show every time it was on. Then, I started watching everything your grandma was in, Elena.”

Elena smiled, “Really? Did you really?”

Gillie nodded, “I sure did.”

Elena’s grandmother smiled. “I really enjoyed acting, and one of my favorite things to do was to meet my fans. You know what I mean, the people who liked me or, at least, the characters I played. One day I was scheduled to do a Meet and Greet at a bookshop in a small city in Scotland called Dunfermline.”

Gillie began nodding excitedly. “That’s the day!”

Kara sat up a bit more, knowing what was coming. This story was as familiar to her as her own mother’s voice when she sang lullabies. Kara knew this wasn’t an exciting story. It was a calming story, a sweet story, just like a lullaby. It made Kara feel warm and cozy.

Elena is still a little girl, thought Kara, she thinks it’s an exciting story, just like I used to think. Maybe it’s the way Grandmother lights up when she tells her part. Kara smiled to herself, feeling rather grown up, and watched her Grandmother’s face as she spoke.

I heard that Amanda was coming to the bookshop, and I couldn’t believe it. She was going to be so close! I begged my mother to take me. She told me she couldn’t do it because of the time. I was soooo disappointed.”

Kara and Elena both whispered “Soooo disappointed,” just as Gillie said it. Both girls giggled into their hands and waited for the rest.

Amanda said, “I had been signing autographs for what seemed like hours, when I saw this beautiful woman in a wheelchair—“

Wait!” yelled both girls. “Wait, she didn’t tell how she got there!”

Laughing, Amanda said, “Oops! Gillie, I stepped on your toes there.”

Oh, dear…we must be getting old. Well, my mother couldn’t take me, but on the day, my sister surprised me. She came to pick me up, but she didn’t tell me where we were going. You should have seen how surprised I was when we pulled up in front of the bookshop. I almost cried! I was so happy!”

So, then,” said Amanda, “I was signing autographs so much my hand was tired and all I really wanted was a cup of tea. I saw this beautiful young woman in a wheelchair coming up just as the line of fans came to an end. As she rolled up to me, I saw that she had a photograph of me from when I was in Hollyoaks. It was one of my favorite photos of me. As she handed me the photo, I looked into her eyes, and I saw nothing but love and excitement. I gladly signed that autograph.”

And then...” Kara asked, knowing the next part already.

And then,” Gillie said, “and then Amanda asked me to join her for tea! My sister had some errands to run, so she didn’t mind me staying in town a little longer. So, we went to tea at a little teashop that was next door to the bookshop. We had the most wonderful conversation.”

That was the beginning of our friendship, and now we visit each other whenever we can. As you well know children, since we are often blessed with your presence during such times.” Amanda finished.

The girls clapped their hands as if they had just watched a lovely play. Gillie patted Kara on the head. “Now, you girls run and play for awhile. It will be time for us to take you home soon, Kara.”

Elena wriggled off Amanda’s lap and skipped over to Kara, taking her hand. “Come on, Kara, let’s play book shop ladies.”

I want to be the famous actress!” yelled Kara as the two ran off.

Amanda reached over and poured some more tea into her cup, then into Gillie’s. Handing Gillie her cup, she lifted hers up and tapped it against her friend’s. “Here’s to friendship!”

The women sat together chatting about their two different worlds, rocking and sipping tea.
Photo from http://jiheseyuyi.co/


Friday, April 13, 2012

Poem: Love, Requited

I haven't written much in the way of poetry lately - a haiku here, a senryu there.  But I have a lot of poetry that hasn't been out in awhile...so, I thought I'd share some of it here.

Love, Requited

I’ve loved and lost
And loved again
I wonder, sometimes
If I’ve ever truly
Been loved in return?
No matter:  my heart
Has been true, my touch
Tender, my yearning
Body a reflection of the
Beauty of my soul

I love again:  at distance,
I dream of a day when
I may meet my love,
Reach out to place
My loving hand, tender
Upon his cheek; kiss
Closed eyes, brush
Fingertips along his neck
From nape to chest
To belly….

His words are aphrodisiac
To me, even those that
Reek of pain and loss and
The broken heart he
Bears for another, I see
His name, and my
Heart thrills – I close
My eyes, envision my
Approach to him, seated
I straddle his lap, sit
Solid, jean upon jean
His hands strong upon
My back, spread fingers
Pulling me forward
Almost one, and I
Lean forward into a kiss
Tongue within tongue
Entwined, like our words
The pain we have shared
So much in common

We yearn, we seek love
We trust and are left
Broken – oh, that we might
Pick each other up, dust
Off our hearts, repair our
Shattered souls and together
Write the love poem
We were born to write…
Together

© 2 June 2010 by Suzy Jacobson

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Poem: A Whole Heart

A Whole Heart

I have a whole heart
it’s been broken before
and for a time, was fixed
temporarily with tie-dyed
duct tape, staples and a little
bit of that paste made from flour
and water, glommed together
I kept it protected, wrapped
in cellophane or tin-foil, pretending
it was whole and refusing to hand
it to others for fear that they
might break it
one more time

One day in a dark moment
I unwrapped it, held it in my
Hands beneath a star-studded
Ponderosa scented sky and
Watched as it cracked open
Duct tape worn out, frazzled edges
Staples bent and paste dried to
Granules of dust, I held it
In pieces and cried because
I just knew it was never going
To be whole again –

I know this is the moment when
My heart began its reparation;
Pieces fused together like the
Lost limb of a starfish
For a time it was a green-ware
Sculpture of a whole heart
At risk of shattering, though
I kept it safe, away from the grasping
Hands of others until I brought
It into the desert kiln and let in bake
Baked until the moment I could
Feel the warmth of forgiveness
Illuminating it through the skylight

No longer broken, my heart
Shellacked and buffed
Within the safety of my chest
Practiced loving only those who
Loved me back, for sure –
My children, my parents, my siblings
God, and there’s the One whose
Love was the forge; where
My heart, given back into the hands
Of its Maker was re-forged; made
Strong and reinforced with the
Tears of my experiences
Turned to diamonds

Now, I know I have a whole heart
Whole enough to give to another
Not in part nor in pieces
Not just enough to keep them in
My pocket waiting for change,
But whole enough to give to those
Who already have it – my children,
My parents, my siblings, God and
The one for whom it waits
A whole heart is big enough
To be given over and over
And over again, without risk
Of growing too thin

And though, in the giving, it might
Be dropped, scuffed, tossed aside
Or even stomped into the ground
A whole heart strengthened by
The fire of its own forge and
Shellacked by the tears of false love
May crack, but will never, ever
Really break again

Delusional, I may think it has been
Shattered; but as soon as I look
Straight on until morning
I will see that my heart is still whole

And it waits, wholeheartedly, for love.

© 11 June 2010 by Suzy Jacobson

NOTE:  And a year later, almost to the day, I unexpectedly handed my heart over to my old friend Bill; and on 17 September 2011, we were married!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Poem: Practical Magic

Practical Magic

I feel like Sally Owens…
The spell cast once, long ago
And forgotten
A poem to describe
The perfect man…
The impossible dream…
Though she wrote hers
To keep love at bay
And I wrote mine
Believing it an unattainable
Hope; the end is the same
There must be magic
In the Arizona desert;
Real men, forged by the heat
And the experiences of youth
Wrought into the perfect answer
To the perfect prayer
Whispered from the heart
Of an honest woman,
Dreaming

© July 9, 2011 by Suzy Phoenix